I believed that everyone deserve attention and respect but I was wrong
In most of my life, I doted others for attention of care,affection, kindness, cordial and respect. If someone ask why to be generous? Because I know its value as no one had given me this. For so many years, I had belief that if you want attention then score a good grade even when you are average student, if you want affection then shower them with your kindness and care, even if you needed more than others. If you want advice and knowledge then waste your precious time to be with them, think about them, do for them till your life will become everything about them as if you own something a debt from them but it is not.
The title of “ GOOD GIRL" become a vague to fight for it and unberable to maintain until a girl hit to the rock-bottom of her life. Violá here she become a lady.
If you want to be entitled as “GOOD GIRL" as every girls and young woman does struggle hard and fight a big war psychologically and in real world we offer respect to all. All means to All. Either it is next-door and family Aunty-Ji who is just want to sneak around your privacy and without any shy does interrogate your confidential information and spread it by like an virus-outbreak as she couldn’t resist her leisure of gossip or to an adult man who is just pathetic pedophile or patriarchy pervert but need to comprimise as they would be the most senior member of family or in hierarchy position of the workplace. For the sake of saving our identity in family or saving our job giving the worthy value to those who doesn’t worthy to be offered. It seems not the big deal. Isn’t it?
The title of “ GOOD GIRL" become a vague to fight for it and unberable to maintain until a girl hit to the rock-bottom of her life. Violá here she become a lady from naive, unpredictable and silly-face girl (as everyone murmuring and called her). So, somewhere this struggle is not vain but what is gone vain it is my time and energy which I put to show my perferct version to those who never shy away to leave me in darkness pit of ambigious and gaslight made me to see surreal of reality. It was so surprising that I can see my life as a master piece of unworthy folks who is just unworthy to be talk about. They just love it and happy to offer this penalty because I given my attention and energy to them. They know it that they are not worthy to be with me and so they make me unworthy and undeservable to view myself because I given my kindness, affection and respect to them that no one had offered me and I even didn’t knew that why I given to them untill it is so late. Welcome to Self-regret and lonely arena. Adieu to Friendship, Professional-formal relationship and Networking .
Conclusion.: This value should be given to those who deserve it or could afford to give back and need it (conditiones if asked).
As asking never make you weak but demand does make you seem as weak person in view of all.
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